Josh Wilson's struggle with anxiety & depression


Kurt Neuswanger • August 31, 2022

Josh Wilson has a new song with the unusual title of Things That I’m Afraid Of.” Josh says the song was inspired by his own struggle with anxiety and depression. And he is hoping it is an encouragement to others.

 

Josh told WayFM that he didn’t realize how difficult anxiety is to tackle until he started having panic attacks. “I was out shopping and my left shoulder and arm went numb… I had a huge chest pain and I was having trouble breathing. And I wasn’t even anxious about anything, so it came out of nowhere, and I thought it was a heart attack. I went to the ER and the doctor said this was anxiety. 

 

“It’s something that I’m not completely over. It’s a daily handing of my life over to Jesus and saying I really do believe that You are big enough to carry me through this. I’ve always said Christ is all that I need, but in those moments, He’s really all that I have.

 

“My advice is to seek out some help because you’re not alone, and if you try to go it alone, you only make it worse.”

 

Josh is joined by Tasha Layton on “Things That I’m Afraid Of.”

 

When I am shaking
And my heart's pounding
You always take me
Make me lie down in
Peaceful fields where
I can clear my head

 

'Cause I get so overcome with anxiety
That there's an enemy living inside of me
Like a mocker yelling out telling lies to me
And I don't feel brave but I don't have to be
'Cause

 

I walked through the valley of shadows
And it scared me half to death
But You're with me ev'rywhere I go
So I won't give up yet
My fears would surely kill me
If I didn't know the truth
The things that I'm afraid of
Are afraid of You


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